Post by Jayden Murphy on Jan 31, 2009 13:18:57 GMT -5
His offer to help her made Jayden smile, maybe this whole charade wouldn’t be so bad if she had his expertise to learn from. The smirk as he quoted his nickname had made her half laugh, if only people knew the truth of just how freaky their kind was. Though right now, she thought the humans around them were more freaks then them. Their actions, eating habits and conversation made Jayden feel almost normal.
“I don’t think you a freak. No more then anyone else here.” She said with a returning smile. “These people are very freaky.”
She felt a comfort with Edward, not just in the last few minutes of talking but ever since their mutual out bursts in his home. Maybe it was the ultimate ice breaker to fight over trying to change one another’s ideas. Jayden looked on Edward differently to how most of the school did. She didn’t think him a freak nor was she intensely drawn to him the way Bella and most of the female population must be. Sure he was handsome, but Jayden wasn’t attracted in that way to him. She just saw a true and honest man and perhaps the start of a great friendship. Or maybe been part Vampire she was just immune to his amazing looks. Jayden wasn’t sure which but the first made her smile and the second gave her a light chuckle as the thought passed through her mind.
“You help would be greatly appreciated.” She said with an honest smile. “It will certainly be a unique kind of homework to be tutored in. My education is fine academically, though I think my acting skills are lacking.”
Post by Edward Cullen on Feb 23, 2009 2:04:03 GMT -5
"It's all a matter of perspective" Edward said with a smile as Jayden called the others at this school bigger freaks than he was. He was glad that she seemed to be relaxing, if only just a little bit. .The more relaxed she was, the easier it would be for her here. She already had it easier blending in, in his opinion. She was half human, closer to being human than any of his family was. He didnt expect her to have any probelms.
In his attempt to make sure that Jayden wasn't completely freaking out about what was happening, he was monitoring her thoughts, keeping track of what seemed to increase her anxiety and how he might make things easier, even the unsaid problems. He heard her thoughts of why she was immune to his good looks and charm and raised an eyebrow at her as she laughed.
"My help will always be at your disposal" He assured her. He laughed as she spoke of the uniqueness of him tutoring her in acting human. "Their habits seem a lot odder than the hardest math problem. There's no shame in needing some tutoring with it"
Post by Jayden Murphy on Mar 1, 2009 14:22:06 GMT -5
Feeling a little more relaxed with the reconfirmation of Edward’s support and help Jayden let go of the idea of running from the cafeteria, the school and even forks. She wasn’t completely sure how all this would turn out, but she knew she’d have help. She felt no shame in her honesty with Edward, though it was an unusual feeling to be so open and honest.
Offering Edward a small smile she looked back to the table they had left a few moments ago. “You seem a master at the act. You even manage to attract friends.” She nodded to the table where Amber sat. “Friends seem more of a risk. Though I have never been so familiar with people to call them friends, maybe I’m just not used to that bond?” She asked the question more to herself then Edward as she watched Amber then cast her gaze to other groups in the room.
When he gaze and attention finally return to Edward she spoke with a voice quieter then the rest of their conversation and averted her eyes. “I count you as a friend, Edward. And your family.” Her words were still cautious for a irrational fear that despite his words he may still turn her away.
Post by Amber Jefferson on Mar 15, 2009 11:59:49 GMT -5
Blushing slightly, Amber glanced down at her bowl, spearing a piece of apple as Edward guided Jayden away with the promise of ice cream. She would never forget her first date with Mike and the embarrassment that had gone along with it as she had almost flashed a dozen teenage boys. They had gone for ice cream afterwards, and even now, the two were virtually synonymous to her, ice cream and embarrassment simply seemed to go hand in hand in her memory. Thankfully, none of their school friends had been there and she had escaped virtual mortification, even with Mike, who had been a perfect gentleman, looking anywhere but at the cause of her horror until she was safely re-dressed before helping her make a quick escape. Again, she glanced over at him, a fond smile on her lips as her eyes fell on her boyfriend. It was incredible how such small things could remind her of him, even in a roundabout way.
Looking up quickly as Bella spoke, she nodded at her back as she darted away, cringing at the sound of the book falling. They were definitely alike. It was remarkable how little they knew each other considering the fact that, in coordination, they were almost twins. For a brief moment, she was alone, relishing the momentary silence. She was far more comfortable with people now than she had been when she had first arrived in Forks but even now, she needed a few seconds by herself to recharge her batteries, take a deep breath so to speak, before she ventured into the frightening world of socialisation once more.
Absently munching on the piece of apple, she glanced up as another figure approached the table, smiling at the now familiar face. She barely knew Alice, much like the other members of the Cullen family besides Edward and Carlisle, but she very much liked the bubbly girl. She never ceased to find it surprising that, where socialising tended to exhaust her, she seemed to find herself energised when Alice was around, as if Edward’s far more chipper sibling’s cheerful demeanour was contagious.
“Hey Alice” she said brightly, setting her fork down and resting her arms on the table as she looked at her new companion. “How’s it going?”
When people say "Life if hard", I always want to ask them, "Compared to what?"
The trip to the library had turned out to be a short one for Bella. As could be predicted the sorely underused resource was almost abandoned in the lunch hour, especially as there were no large assignments due in. As such, Bella quickly got in and out, smiling pleasantly at the young, red haired librarian as she handed her book over and waited to check that everything was alright. She resisted the urge to quicken her pace back to the lunch hall as it usually spelt disaster for her verticality, but she was eager to get back to Edward; she always was.
Entering the lunch hall once more, after possibly only ten minutes of absence, Bella’s soulful brown eyes automatically turned to the table that she had previously occupied and immediately noticed that Edward and Jayden had yet to rejoin. Amber and Alice were there, though, so she wandered back over with a smile on her face and took her seat.
“Sorry about that, I had completely forgotten… been kind of distracted… lately…” Her eyes wandered back over to the lunch queue where Edward and Jayden remained, talking in hushed tones. No doubt Alice could hear every word, but Bella knew that they probably needed a chance to discuss Jayden’s presence at school. She knew that everything they worked so hard to maintain could be at risk if the hybrid bolted or exposed them and had no desire to endanger them. She needed them here.
Post by Edward Cullen on May 7, 2009 10:21:29 GMT -5
Edward could hear the moment when Jayden’s thoughts began to stop entertaining the idea of fleeing the school grounds. It reassured him to know she was going to stay. It would have drawn attention if she had, and for her own mental wellbeing, he thought that she would be happier having a place to go, where she could eventually fit in.
Edward gave a light smile as she complimented the way he seemed a master at the act and commented on how he even attracted friends. “In most of our locations, my siblings are the only ones who want to talk to me” He told her honestly. “I think Bella has made me more approachable” He told her, honestly believing that Bella had a humanizing influence on him. His family’s thoughts had shown him that he was more tolerable to be around at home, and appeared happier, so it would make sense that there was a change in how he acted at school as well. “Friends are a risk…but it can also be nice to have, and help you fit in better”
Edward looked over to the table as he saw Bella returning. He turned back to Jayden as he heard her voice quiet and with an uncertain fear. Knowing she wouldn’t be shocked by his skin temperature the way others were, he risked reaching out and touching her arm gently. “Jayden, I count you as a friend as well. I hope you will always think of me as one”
Post by Jayden Murphy on May 10, 2009 21:44:12 GMT -5
Glancing around the lunch room Jayden could feel her feelings and emotions evening out more as she spoke with Edward. The logic and encouraging words he spoke carried almost the same feeling as what she assumed Jasper’s gift must feel like to experience. Looking at the humans Jayden had to remind herself that she was part of their race, or at least half of her was.
“Yet, here you are inundated with friends. I’m sorry if my appearance like glue to your side is going to rouse suspicions or difficulty with those around you.” Jayden said instantly worrying that people would think it odd that the new girl immediately befriended the unapproachable Cullen. Jayden looked back at Edward as she watched Bella return to their table. Watching Bella and Edward Jayden couldn’t help think of her parents even just for a brief second, yet this time she felt melancholy at the thought, not anger.
“It feels as if everything is a risk.” Jayden said with a very human sigh, “I am just hoping all of this will be worth the risk.” She said with a smile, but worry too. “As for fitting in, one of them right…well half anyway.” She said smiling a little brighter at her own hybrid nature.
The touch of Edward’s hand on her arm was a nice feeling, one of support and she felt the friendship it offered and showed. Jayden felt no discomfort at the slight difference in temperature, but rather a familiar feeling it reminding her of the skin of her father. “Thank you, Edward.” Jayden smiled at him with a genuine warm feeling at the offer and encouragement of friendship. “You and your family have been so welcoming to me, I only hope to repay you but not causing more trouble.” She admitted.
“I see Bella has return.” She said following his gaze. “Should we return?” Jayden asked knowing their love was strong and presuming he would want to return to Bella as soon as possible. Jayden did not claim to understand the attraction of human to Vampire, nor the returned attraction, but she accepted it as Edward and his family accepted her.
Post by Edward Cullen on Jun 2, 2009 23:38:43 GMT -5
Edward could hear that Jayden’s thoughts were calming and there was less thought of running right now. What he had been telling her was helping, something that was always good to know when you were speaking to a person. He knew when his words were effective or not.
“Your presence will not do anything to rouse suspicion; however your popularity may not be helped by you talking to the weird Cullen kid.” Edward told her. He didn’t fear for their own cover with her present, he just wanted her to be comfortable and not risk her own wellbeing, though there was little about her that said anything but human. “No one in this room is suspicious of you, I can guarantee that”
“Most things are a risk, so its good to be cautious, just don’t let it destroy the reason you’re here, for normality” Edward told her. “It will be worth it, I think you’ll enjoy it”
Despite how unused to touching anyone other than Bella or his family, it felt very normal to make the physical contact with Jayden. It was comforting to him as well in a way to not have to hide this from her, in a way he was sure that it actually helped his own cover, people would see he was capable of normal human behaviors. “You’re welcome Jayden” He told her sincerely. “ You have not caused any trouble, we are glad to have a friend in the area”
Edward smiled as she suggested they return to the table now that Bella was back. “If you’re sure you’re ready to go back” He said, willing to wait longer if she needed another moment. He then remembered something, a part of their cover story for standing over here. “Oh, first I need to buy you that ice cream…I hope you do eat ice cream” he said as he started walking towards the checkout line.
Post by Jayden Murphy on Jun 18, 2009 16:49:14 GMT -5
Edward’s words calmed Jayden to a point where she no longer felt like running from the crowded cafeteria. After talking with the mature and more experienced vampire, she knew that would cause my raised eyebrows then her very presence there. Jayden looked around the room again and tried to convince herself that she, Edward and Alice were the scariest things in the room, not the minimal risk of exposure.
Jayden couldn’t help the quiet laugh that escaped her lips and the smile that remained there when Edward called himself ‘the weird Cullen kid’. She thought of herself as weird, not quiet fitting in anyway. To Jayden, Edward was almost normal. “Funny how they think you to be the weird on in this conversation.” She smiled, around the Cullen family she was all most at ease with her hybrid nature because they never made her feel like one thing or another. His reassurances were comforting knowing of his gift she trusted his words. “Thank you, that’s one less thing to think and worry about.” She said with a sigh now thinking more about life in general then school life.
Jayden wasn’t sure if at some point in their past visits he had read her mind and heard we wish for normality or if it was something she wore right out on her sleeve. Whichever it was when Edward mentioned the normality of school Jayden realized he was right, learning was something her own father had encouraged of her. “You are right, if I follow yours and your family’s example then I think I can do it.” She said with a nod, “Don’t enjoying school kind of set us apart from the teenage populous?” She smirked with a slight joke finally starting to feel ease set over her.
Smiling at his words Jayden held silent she knew that no matter how many times she said she was thank you she wasn’t sure the Cullen’s would have truly realize her gratitude to them. She knew that her repayment to them would be to keep her own secret as well as them and in turn help to protect them in some minor way. “After all the years of wondering I’m glad I finally sought out your father and your family.” Jayden smiled again unable to convey the emotions at been called a friend. Her hand reached out and squeezed Edward’s as it rested on her hand, it was a quick gesture then she let her hand drop back to her side; touching and been touched still alien to her after so long alone.
“I’m ready to go back, I feel better now after talking to you.” Jayden said looking over at the table and seeing Bella joining Alice and Amber. Jayden was eager to talk with Alice again and assure the seer that she would no trouble even is Alice couldn’t verify that with her own visions. “Ice cream? Oh yes, I eat ice cream. Vanilla.” She said half forgetting their cover story for stepping away from the table.
Jayden waited in line with Edward then followed him back to the table. This time as she crossed the crowded room she felt less wound up, her eyes still darted around but this time she watched. Drawing up to the table she smiled at each of the girls and decided to let Edward do the talking, she felt drained after their own talk.
Post by Edward Cullen on Jul 4, 2009 17:55:31 GMT -5
Edward could hear that the general sense of Jayden's thoughts changed from flight to belief in herself that she could make it, if even just today. It was a start and he felt like he had helped her in a way Carlisle would have done, something he always liked to try to do, and he also did enjoy helping Jayden, even if he had initially been angry with her for not having let him know ahead of time that she'd be here.
Edward gave a small smile as he heard her light laugh at his comment of being the weird Cullen kid. "Trust me, you fit in everywhere" He assured her "You're welcome, and you have my word that I'll let you know if anyone gets at all suspicious, but I don't think you'll have to worry"
"You can do it" He said giving a light laugh of his own as she suggested that what would set them apart from the teenagers was the fact that they would enjoy school. "I suppose you're right about that, but they may just assume you're happy over a new outfit or going shopping on the weekend instead of actually about being in school itself, though Jasper and I have gotten good and the bored and uncomfortable looks during the class so we fit right in with that part"
Edward felt happy when he heard her say how glad she was that she finally sought out his family. He smiled back at her as she reached out and squeezed his hand and then removed his when she did, neither of them being too used to touching. He nodded as she said she was ready to go back to their table and went to get her the vanilla ice cream she asked for. After paying for it he handed it to her and walked her back over to the table, joining Bella, Amber and Alice. He took his seat beside Bella but gave Jayden one last supportive nod before checking to see what he had missed in the conversation here since he'd been gone.
Post by Jayden Murphy on Jul 11, 2009 19:18:10 GMT -5
It was reassuring to hear Edward’s support and protection over her true nature and continued presence at the school. “Thank you Edward.” She nodded again feeling the inadequacy of the word. “I feel more at ease knowing you and your gift are on my side.” She smiled.
Jayden laughed along with Edward as he said people would assume she was happy about a new outfit, that was one typical teenage past time she was yet to partake in. “Perhaps I should take those lessons from you and practice looking bored and uncomfortable.” She smiled then let her face drop hoping she could pull of the bored look; it quickly broke as she smiled again. The talk she had with Edward had set her a lot more at ease then she had felt at the table, in a cafeteria surrounded by Humans.
When Edward smiled back at her Jayden realized just how happy she truly was that she had finally sought out a name to the face and family her father had told her about before his chosen death. She actually liked the Cullen’s and was finally feeling comfortable around Edward, at least. When he squeezed her hand Jayden felt the contact and realized how human, or in this case Vampire, contact was lacking in her life. Despite realizing the fact that she wasn’t quiet comfortable with it, yet.
Rejoining the table Jayden offered a slight smile towards Alice who had joined the table, she had a checkered history with the psychic vampire something she’d like to rectify. Jayden returned a confidant nod to Edward before sitting down amongst the humans and waiting to, perhaps, rejoin the conversation as she opened her ice cream and began tentatively eating it.
Post by Bella Swan on Jul 13, 2009 14:00:55 GMT -5
Most embarrassingly, the moment that Edward and Jayden turned their attention back to their table, Bella’s heart leapt in joy. Although she didn’t blush this time, she thought, ruefully, that Edward really didn’t need to be able to read her thoughts when her body gave her away so readily. That would be changing soon, though, after graduation. Then she would be no heartbeat, no blood of her own to betray her. A surge of adrenaline kick started more happy pitter-pattering of her heart at the thought.
“Welcome back,” she said, intending to address both of them equally, but everyone knew by this point that she only had eyes for her vampire fiancé. She smiled shyly, automatically sidling closer to Edward, still not being well acquainted with the hybrid. Her brown eyes slid from Jayden to Alice as she considered how quickly she got to know and love the pixie-like vampire. Then again, when one of the parties of the friendship was psychic and already knew that they would be great friends, she supposed that must speed the process up a little.
And finally, her gaze fell naturally upon Amber. This girl Bella still considered to be a good friend of their group in general. She remembered how she had foolishly worried about her being a rival for Edward’s affections back in the beginning, but, as she twisted her engagement ring around her finger, she had no such doubts now. She wondered how the girl would react if she knew that three of the occupants of the table had the capacity to drink blood. It was a concept that, oddly, had never fazed her, but she had often been told how ‘uniquely (and infuriatingly) Bella’ that was. Still, Amber had never suffered from the prey-like instinct around the vampires of their school, maybe she also lacked her entire survival instinct like Bella did.
“Good ice cream?” she asked Jayden, quietly, after a few moments of reflection. Her shyness with the hybrid would take a while to lift, but she thought that she would make an attempt at friendliness, especially as she could gauge from Edward that things had gone well. Her hand reached out and latched on to Edward’s icy one in an automatic gesture a she looked at the school’s new start.
Post by Jayden Murphy on Aug 3, 2009 23:49:27 GMT -5
Trailing behind Edward back to the table Jayden felt a little more at ease, not relaxed, but less flighty. Edward’s talk had instilled more confidence in her then she though was possible, up until those few moments away she was ready to run and never return. Now she though she could face atleast the rest of the day if not the rest of the week.
Quietly, maybe too quietly, Jayden pulled out her seat and retook it. She had the steady movement of the human’s down, but she knew there was so much more she would have to take notice of when trying to fit in. Looking around the table Jayden took her first bite of the ice cream, though it seemed more ice to her as if it had been left in the freezer too long. Still she took a few bites and looked around the table, Alice had joined the group but Jayden didn’t let her eyes linger too long. She looked to the humans at the table and wondered how Amber could not see their secret as plain as it was to her. Then to Bella and Edward she could see their love quiet plainly, but now she couldn’t contest it not after meeting her own human.
Bella spoke and Jayden nodded. “Its nice.” she smiled. “I like ice cream a lot. I like the coolness of it.” Jayden didn’t mention the excess ice so as not to seem ungrateful to Edward for buying her the treat even if it was more of an excuse for their talk. “How is you lunch, Bella?” Jayden asked saying her name out loud since her argument with Edward about the same girl. Now they exchanged small talk and Jayden wondered how much Edward had told his girlfriend of their fight.
Jayden felt a little arkward, other then Caleb and Angel Bella was the first human she’d spoken too. And Bella was certainly the first human she’d ever spoken with who knew their secret and the existence of their race. It was an interesting feeling knowing she knew and was willing to keep the secret, but even knowing that Jayden couldn’t look at Bella for long and quickly she dropped her eyes back to her ice cream.
Post by Bella Swan on Aug 26, 2009 20:05:26 GMT -5
Bella’s shy smile grew a little as Jayden told her that the ice cream was nice, being glad that at least the hybrid was comfortable enough for small talk. It wasn’t as if they could have a proper conversation right here and now with Amber sat there, but at least the other girl seemed to be comfortable enough not to just shrink into the background… which was what she had wanted to do when she had begun as the new girl at Forks High. At least the half-vampire hadn’t had an out-of-date father pre-introducing her as Isabella Swan at every opportunity… Still, that meant she could relate and no doubt Edward would want her to belong now that she had introduced herself to the environment.
“It’s uhh…” she glanced down at her now cold and mostly untouched pasta and wrinkled her nose a little. With a small smile she looked back at Jayden. “It’s cafeteria food… it somehow tastes like an ingredient that shouldn’t even have been in the same zip code as the pasta. Interesting, but… yeah.” She laughed a little, her cheeks flooding with blood. She hadn’t been told much about the fight that her fiancé had with this girl, just that there was a conflict of opinions. She had decided not to pry, though she was still curious to know what they could have had such a disagreement over. She didn’t imagine that it would be her alone.
Post by Jayden Murphy on Sept 6, 2009 21:22:57 GMT -5
Watching as Bella spoke about the pasta Jayden nodded surprised at how at ease this girl was considering the population at the table. Jayden knew if she were in the situation where she was surrounded by more humans she would feel uncomfortable and very self conscious. Other then the blush, Bella seemed to be at ease.
Looking down at the pasta in question in front of Bella, Jayden nodded. “Certainly looks, different from any pasta I’ve eaten before.” She said shyly, it was her first foray into small talk with a human. The whole time Bella had been at the table all Jayden could think about was the argument she and Edward had had about his relationship with a human, a relationship she was close to emulating with Caleb. She was certainly feeling hypocritical and trying to keep her thoughts focused on school not her personal life, she knew Edward would be using his particular gift to check her moods.