Post by Bayak Solomon on May 20, 2010 0:56:26 GMT -5
Baya shook her head a little as she heard him say how the legends were true. He looked excited about telling her this, but it still wasn't making any sense to her. She didn't see how they could all be true. She was sure that some of them were true, but that a lot of them had been created to teach life lessons and inspire their people, or that they held great metaphors. There may be some truth to all of them but they couldnt' be taken literally.
She nodded, frowning a little as he mentioned the specific legend that they were descendents of wolves and protected the tribe from the Cold ones. This was one of the legends Baya knew not to take literally, it was a scary story, probably meant to keep children from leaving the Quileute land alone and crossing the so called treaty line. Or maybe it was meant to make them wary of any outsiders. "Yeah...I remember that one...but thats not one of the real ones...there's no such thing as vampires and we don't have any animal blood in us, I know your parents Reid, they're human" She said, getting suspicious now as to whether he was just trying to scare her with some story about vampires.
Post by Reid Garwin on May 21, 2010 1:21:35 GMT -5
Nodding lightly when she told him that she remembered the Legend, Reid's smile grew a little. The conversation was gaining momentum towards what he wanted her to know, though she was starting to sound like a Pale Face. He couldn't blame her a bit; before his first phase he had given up on trying to believe them as well. Instead of faith, he thought with logic and cynicism. He didn't think she was a cynic, but she was thinking like this because... she just didn't know how real it all was. Only something like this could change her mind, because it was how it had changed his mind.
The frown that was starting to appear on her face only worried Reid a little. Of course she was going to question what he was saying, she wouldn't be as smart as Reid knew she was if she didn't. Raising one hand to rub his tired eyes, he chuckled lightly. He was so close, but he didn't know how to make her understand. "I know it sounds crazy, Baya... but we really do have Guardians for La Push." He wanted to spill everything to her and tell her how amazing it was, how tiring it was, but he needed to make her believe it first. "It's real." He was worried that he was starting to sound like he was begging, and that she was just gonna laugh at him. He had to think of a way to convince her.
Post by Bayak Solomon on May 23, 2010 15:44:00 GMT -5
Baya saw a hint of a smile across Reid's face and hoped that this was a good sign and that she wasn't just continuing to frustrate him, though her own brain felt like it had come to a roadblock as she tried to comprehend where he was going with the information he was giving her. She remembered the legends. She knew most of them pretty well, having been brought up on them in a family that honored tradition and valued their culture. But none of what Reid was saying made any sense to, and her brain couldn't quite make the leap he wanted her too yet, as it didnt even cross her mind the real truth in the stories. She wasn't cynical or a skeptic, she had just always thought it was merely the thing of legends and fiction. She never had reason to believe otherwise.
When she saw him chuckling she started beginning to think more seriously that he was just playing some prank on her, trying to convince her of the scary things in the night to get her afraid only to laugh at her later for falling for it. The thought annoyed her deeply as she had thought that they had gotten closer these past few weeks. She pulled her hand away from him frustrated now for a reason beyond not understanding. "Yeah, we have guardians, big old wolves out there that are really our greatgrandparents spirits that are fighting off the vampires and zombies and aliens too" She said sarcastically as she shook her head wondering if she should just leave. "You know I thought you wanted to have a serious conversation and idiot that I am I thought maybe you were finally ready to talk about your health problem. Are you even sick or is that just some joke to you too, see how much naive Baya will fall for?"
Post by Reid Garwin on May 30, 2010 23:39:31 GMT -5
Reid looked at her hopefully, waiting for the instant that her confused expression slowly changed into evidence of clarity and awe. He watched her carefully, waiting for her keep asking questions, so he could answer them; and with each answer he would bring her closer to believing in the world he was about to bring her into. He pulled her hand a little closer to his, preparing to be supportive as the news hit her, but he was startled to feel that she had withdrawn her hand entirely. The words that spilled out of her mouth didn't immediately click, and it took him a few seconds to detect the sarcasm even though it had been quite evident in her tone. It was shock that had slowed his realization since he thought he was so close to getting through.
"No, Baya, wait," he responded immediately, though he wasn't sure how to proceed. She was still so convinced that he was sick, thanks to him, that it was keeping her from seeing past it. "I'm not trying to... make fun of your or anything," he told her scrambling to recover from whatever went wrong. "And me... being sick," he continued, this time slowing down, trying to be cautious as he preparing to admit to a lie, "... it's related to all of this." He extended his hand, hoping that she would place hers in it again; it would give him the strength to confess and tell her everything else. "I promise. Just let me finish explaining."
Post by Bayak Solomon on May 31, 2010 0:06:00 GMT -5
Baya shook her head, feeling like she was about to leave and thinking that she should. But still despite her best instincts that this would turn out bad, she wanted to believe that he wasn't just being cruel with her. She wanted to believe the feelings she had been developing for him weren't something she needed to regret or that would be thrown back in her face. She wanted to be able to trust Reid.
She reluctanctly put her hand back in his as he reached out to her and she stayed seated beside him. "Reid if you make me regret this..." She said warningly shaking her head, knowing if he turned on her now and this was all just a mockery that all of her energy would be turned at making his life a living hell as payback. She took a deep breath, trying to get to a point of understanding how all of the folklore he spoke of could be related to his mystery illness. Was it a mental problem? "Help me understand...I'll stay, I'll listen" She told him finally.
Post by Reid Garwin on May 31, 2010 23:40:40 GMT -5
Exhaling heavily, Reid thanked his lucky stars that she was staying. He recovered the warmth he felt traveling up his arm as she touched him, and used it to focus on how exactly he was going to get this out before she reached a point that would make her flip out and leave. He wasn't sure which part to tell her first, and he adjusted himself in his seat for a few seconds while he tried to make his mind work impossibly faster.
"First... I'm gonna have to apologize," he finally said, because he knew he would be saying it quite a few times before she thought he was being sincere. "I'm not sick... at all.. and I know you've thought all along that I've had some crazy illness..." Having to stop for a second, Reid made a gesture with an open hand like he wanted to say something else, but he the words weren't quite there yet. "But I only let you believe it because I couldn't tell you the truth yet... I'm sorry."
Post by Bayak Solomon on May 31, 2010 23:52:51 GMT -5
Baya was surprised to hear that he was going to apologize to her. Baya knew Reid wasn't the apologizing type. Mostly because he rarely admitted he had ever done anything wrong or that needed apologizing for. But soon after she heard the reasons why and knew that his apology did nothing to make up for the lie he had told her and made her believe.
"You're not sick..." Baya repeated, feeling such a mixture of emotions. The overwhelming anger at him for lying to her, disappointment in him for having betrayed her trust and let her believe something serious could happen to him, embarrassment that she had been so easily fooled by him and a hint of relief hidden by the rest of the emotions knowing that he was alright. She wanted to cry, but she wouldn't give him that satisfaction. He had humiliated her enough, she'd stay strong now. She wondered if these past few weeks of getting closer had even been real at all. Maybe he just wanted her to feel sorry for him so he could get in her pants and now that she hadn't given it up he was ready to quit. "I can't believe you'd do that to me...I thought you might die! Do you think that's funny or something? What could you possibly not be able to tell me that a serious illness was a better cover?"
Shaking his head no, no he wasn't sick, he avoided her eyes until she said she had thought he was dying. "Dying? Wbere did you get that from? I never said was I was dying!" This was starting to get way out of hand, and Reid was realizing how bad this had gotten. Now he was starting to question how real the last few weeks were. Did she just hang out with him because she thought he was dying? The thought struck the pit of his stomach, and his brow wrinkled a bit as he considered it. "I'm sorry," he repeated, this time weakly.
"I only let you think all of that because I wanted to protect you. I didn't think you were ready to know about... the wolves." He swallowed hard, waiting to hear another lash. "They're real," he reiterated. "We're real," he said, finally including himself. "I don't think there is an easier way to tell you, Baya... the guardians are real... and I'm one of them"
Post by Bayak Solomon on Jun 4, 2010 0:23:20 GMT -5
Baya was feeling sick to her stomach herself to learn that Reid had lied to her about being sick. It seemed so cruel to make someone believe you were sick when you werent. She was mad at herself right now too for being stupid enough to believe him and fall for his trick, and also for not being able to hate him despite everything right now. She gave an icey stare as he asked her where she got dying from. She was not going to let him turn this to her being overly dramatic. "Because you didn't say anything about what was wrong. You didn't want to talk about it. It was bad enough that I thought it was the reason you stayed on the reservation and I felt you burning up! You didn't say you were dying but you never said you weren't. " Baya said shaking her head. "I thought you were fighting for your life and you were really just fighting from telling me the truth"
"I don't need protection" Baya said thinking that was a weak excuse but trying to find some reasoning for how much he had hurt her with his lies. What could it have been covering up that he needed to tell her he was sick. "The wolves are real...and you're one of them" Baya repeated blankly trying to understand him. "If I'm not falling for your fake sickness anymore I'm not going to fall for you turning into a wolf to be a guardian of our tribe and fight off cold ones" She said recalling the legends.
Post by Reid Garwin on Jul 4, 2010 16:28:05 GMT -5
The realization hit him like a ton of bricks, and Reid felt the power of his omission. He felt like a jackass, but at the same time he didn't see how else he could have protected her up until now, even if she said she didn't need it. He knew better, but he never would have thought she would have made that sort oc conclusion. "No," he said, embarrassed. "I... I was just trying to avoid making up more lies to cover up the first lie, I didn't want to make it worse, I'm sorry," he said again. He had no idea that she would be wondering so much to the point that she would just start making implications from the little that she knew.
It seemed like he had to do a lot of explaining in a really short amount of time. Reid reached over and took a gentle, but firm grasp of her hand, tugging it so she could feel the warmth on his other arm. The sensation of such a simple connection to her made his heart skip a beat, but he maintained focus and tried to keep her attention. "It's not a fever," she said simply. "Our temperatures are warmer because our metabolisms run higher so we can heal faster in case we get hurt." He knew it was a weird factoid to start with, but he wanted to give her the truthful side to the things she was objecting to. "Every time the vampires come to Forks, certain members of the tribe that already have the ability phase, and protect our lands until they leave again." It was a simple start to the complications that were unfolding with the Volturi, but it was the easiest way to start. This time he would tell her everything.
"Tell me what I need to tell you... so you can believe it."
Post by Bayak Solomon on Jul 4, 2010 16:44:55 GMT -5
"You're sorry..." Baya repeated his words with a slight laugh, but also a sense of disbelief mixed with surprise to it. She wasn't used to hearing him apologize for anything, whether he was in the wrong or had done something to hurt someone else or not. It wasn't him. But he seemed sincere now. She also didn't know if sorry could make up for the pain she felt, but felt herself wanting to forgive him. "I thought it hurt you too much to talk about it because you were that sick...that you were scared of dying, that they couldn't help you...I wanted to do anything, call anyone to make sure you got the best help. I actually cared, and worried for you" She said still feeling like a fool but feeling the need to explain a little more since he had apologized.
The last thing Baya wanted to do right now was hold Reid's hand, but as he took it in his strong grasp she knew she couldn't really pull away (though she did believe if she yelled at him enough he would let go). She didnt fight it but gave him a warning look, not wanting him to think all was forgiven. The heat of his hand was still a shock to her, especially knowing that he wasn't sick. It seemed to hot for anything but a fever. But she also didn't feel like pulling away from him anymore. "You're so hot...temperature wise..." She said with another look, not about to let his ego get the best of him now "How is it not a fever" She said not able to believe what he was saying.
"Believe?" She asked, her voice softer, losing a bit of the anger that had been in it earlier, but still feeling the pain. "How can I believe in fictional creatures? Why are you doing this? Do you think one lie makes up for another? That trying to be part of our legends makes it ok..whatever you were doing before?"
Post by Reid Garwin on Jul 4, 2010 17:42:33 GMT -5
She was stubborn and he had always known this, he just hoped that it wouldn't work against him just at this moment. He didn't answer her first question, hoping that his explanation would sink in, hopefully sooner than later, and kept her hands in his, making her maintain the warm contact. If it had any kind of effect like it did on him, maybe it would help him get through to her. "I just didn't think it was the right time to tell you yet," he admitted to her. "Before I changed... you and I weren't on good terms and I wanted us to be friends first. I wanted to give you a good reason to believe me." Hearing her say that she had cared and had worried so much made his heart ache. He hadn't any idea that it would go that far. It also worried him that she was making references to the past. What if it was true? That she only felt bad for him because she thought he'd been sick. It was something that he had been afraid of all along. He had wanted a little bit more time before he had to tell her, but judging from her reaction, he figured it would be bad not matter when or how he told her.
"I understand..." he continued slowly, a little sad and concerned, "if this completely ruins our friendship." How did an imprintee decide not to have anything to do with her wolf? Had it ever happened before? "I don't expect you to... be worried if there's nothing to worry over for me. I just wanted to tell you what was really going on, and to apologize cause I know it was wrong." Her questions told him that she was still having trouble wrapping her mind around something that sounded so impossible. "We're not fictional, at least not anymore. Not while they're so close to La Push."
Post by Bayak Solomon on Jul 4, 2010 22:32:04 GMT -5
"So what you're saying is you used to act like a jerk and then something changed" Baya said not yet believing that he changed into a wolf like he was trying to convince her. "And now suddenly you wanted to be my friend, by lying to me, and are confiding in me this supposedly big secret?" Baya asked him with disbelief. "Why even bother. If you didnt think we were close before, why try to be my friend now? Why not just go off and find someone else to be your friend" She said harsher than she meant as her heart already tugged at her that she didn't mean that, she didn't want to encourage him to leave and never talk to her again. She really just wanted to get out her anger with him, but not stop being his friend. "Even when you were a jerk I kinda saw you as a friend" She added, looking down at their hands, the warmth still coming off of him.
Baya saw that he actually looked sad as he told her it might ruin their friendship. At least he got that this lie had been something big and had hurt her. It helped knowing he realized that. "I still don't know what's really going on" She said truthfully, hearing him continue to try to convince her of the legends being true.
The legends and tribe history were in fact Baya's weak point. She had been raised in such a traditional Quileute family that she knew all about them, and had studied them from a young age, but she had always believed them to hold more of symbolic meaning than anything literal...but something in her could believe about the spirit warriors and their ancestors relationship with the wolf...it was just nearly impossible for her to look at Reid and believe he could turn into one.
"Maybe...just maybe I can believe that some part of the legends could be true...which I'm not saying I do" She said not about to be made a fool of again. "But I do not believe in vampires, unless Buffy's around"
Reid felt his heart ache as she reprimanded him for being untruthful, and he looked down when she told him to go find another friend instead. He deserved that and more for lying to her. Of course there was an extra reason for him needed to be her friend more, and the more she was upset with him, the more he was starting to think that he might have to tell her about the imprinting as well. If he survived this, she would have his head when she found out that there was something else he'd been hiding. For the moment he focused on what they had so far, and decided to not complicate it more.
"I guess... I wanted to deserve your friendship," he told her. "I know lying doesn't really fit in with that idea, but I was just trying to have us be friends. He finally let her hands go, becoming a bit more serious, and tried to contain his own sadness. He needed her to understand the situation with the vampires, but in order to do that... she actually had to believe that they existed. "I thought we were becoming good friends, and I know that this might ruin it because I told you too early, but the other agreed with me that it's better that you know sooner than later." As he included his brothers in the conversation he seemed to find a bit of their strength, and Reid was able to look directly at Baya.
He wondered why only some parts of the legends were acceptable to believe, while others were harder for her to understand. "How could one part exist without the other, Baya? They balance each other out... the Good and Evil." Sighing softly, Reid rubbed his tired eyes. Only his perseverance would have her understand, and he was determined to get through to her somehow."Listen... things are getting serious out there. The Cold Ones we signed the treaty with are still holding up their end, but there are others that we can't control... I just want you to know what's going on... because it's getting more and more dangerous."
Post by Bayak Solomon on Jul 6, 2010 23:42:06 GMT -5
Baya still didnt understand why he was saying this to her of all people. He had just gone and admitted that they weren't that close and so he was trying to get to become better friends with her so that he could what? Tell her this? Explain his lies? Baya shook her head as she thought of it, knowing it didnt make sense, because if he hadn't tried to get closer to her, there wouldn't have been lies to tell to cover up with strange stories. But instead of arguing it any further, she let it go. The truth was she was remembering how happy she had been that they were getting closer, that he finally had seemed to let her in a little more and show the softer side she knew was there.
"I thought of you as one before...not a close one, but seeing how you reacted towards other people, for you I figured that was friendship" Baya told him. She had felt like more of his friend recently, around the time she thought he was sick. But why was he trying to deserve it? She looked down as he let go of her hands and she felt a sudden chill go through her. She also felt a sense of loss, but knew she should be wanting to take advantage of this chance to get away from the guy who had lied to her and hurt her. But instead she stayed, wanting to understand and wanting to not feel like such a fool.
"Told me too early? The only thing that's ruining this is how many lies you're telling me. First that you're sick, now you're bringing in science fiction to scare me or something?" Baya hated this. She hated not understanding and also not sure she knew how much of this Reid even believed himself. She didn't want to be someone he could laugh at later with his buddies for how easy she was to convince of things. "So you did tell other people you were gonna try to get me to believe this?"
"I can believe one part without the other because I dont believe it to be a literal legend. Vampires were made up Hollywood. People can't live by only drinking blood and seriously if they did, do you know how many diseases they'd catch? Eww!" Baya cringed at the idea. "And I didnt say I believed whatever you're trying to feed me...but I believe in our history. I can believe that our spirits are strengthened by nature and by animals around us, including the wolf. It helped our warriors in the past...I'm sure we still carry that strength...but you want me to believe there are vampires near by..good and bad ones? "