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Post by Edward Cullen on Jan 2, 2009 1:19:21 GMT -5
Edward's hands clenched tighter and tighter into fists by his sides as they spoke of Bella. He tried to keep himself restrained, hearing the slight warning, yet supportive sound of his father's thoughts. He knew they were all supportive of his relationship with Bella (except for Rosalie), but Jayden was bringing up all the doubts that he had in himself over their relationship. She was voicing his own worst fears, which was what upset him the most.
"You think I'm keeping her as a pet? Something to play with? Or what, maybe a snack to keep on hand for those days when I'm too lazy to go out on my own?" He asked her enraged. He could hear the alarm of the thoughts around him and tried to reign in his emotions, not sorting out what thoughts belonged to who at the moment.
"I am not playing with her, and before you judge us, maybe you should know the facts" Edward said, angry that she would make assumptions about the carelessness of his family over a piece of information he had let her know. "We did not tell her our secret, she discovered it on her own. And I am well aware of the danger I place her in everytime that I see her, do not think this is something we have done lightly"
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Post by Jayden Murphy on Jan 2, 2009 19:59:25 GMT -5
Jayden felt her anger hit boiling point as she listened to Edward sit there and try to justify the danger he was putting this human in. She listened abashed when he almost joked about seeing this girl as a meal. She fought herself to keep the anger locked away and tried to keep her voice as neutral as possible, but it was use less.
“How can you joke of her as food?” She snapped back. “I do not understand this fascination you have with a human. It has nothing to do with judging you. I did not come here to pass judgments on anyone for anything.”
Jayden stopped and checked herself as she glanced back out of the picture window. She was here in someone else home acting like judge, jury and executioner. This was not how she was raised and she knew her father would be ashamed of her behavior. This was a difficult and person subject, and one she didn’t understand fully. Taking a sighing breath she shrugged and spoke again
“If you recognize the danger why do it?” She asked a little more calmly. In all honesty Jayden could not understand why someone would put another in danger if they meant anything to them. She had never experienced any form of love other then that of her father’s. So she had no experience from which to draw on. “I can not understand your fascination with a human, nor her attraction with our kind.”
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Post by Carlisle Cullen on Jan 2, 2009 20:45:02 GMT -5
Carlisle listened patiently to what Jayden had to say, knowing that she had a right to a difference of opinion, but wary of anything that would suggest she would react in an unfavourable light. Reinforcing that Bella was part of the family was intended as a deterrent for any harm she would cause to the human girl, but as Jayden replied to his words he was satisfied that it was unneeded. Her heart lay in the right place, fearing for the safety of Bella, rather than their own security. Carlisle could appreciate that, but it still didn’t change matters - that was Bella and Edward’s personal choice. They had all seen what it had done to both of them to split them up and no one was going to encourage it.
“Perhaps that is the case,” he said, calmly considering her suggestion that they would provide the biggest danger to her. “But we all love her as part of this family, and it is ultimately her own decision whether she wants to expose herself to us or not.”
He quietened after the statement, listening to Jayden’s anger grow and recognising Edward’s own irritation with Jayden’s words. A frown wrinkled his brow as the tone of her argument grew personal and insulting, though he resisted stepping in to diffuse the situation until Edward had his say. He only hoped that his son managed to keep his fiery temper at bay enough not to provoke the hybrid further. If they both had tempers on them then he knew this situation could blow out of proportion. He watched Jayden intently as he saw her struggle with her temper, having already seen Edward’s clenched fists. He shifted in his seat and smoothly rose so that he now stood on the sidelines, a tall, calm tower in their peripheral vision, trying to remind them of their senses.
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Esme Cullen
Dazzled
Vegetarian Vampire
The Mother
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Post by Esme Cullen on Jan 3, 2009 2:28:08 GMT -5
Esme watched the exchange of words between everyone, the conversation quickly escalating. People getting angered. She watched as Jayden became outraged at the knowledge of Bella and Edward, a human and vampire. Edward was getting angered too, the words Jayden threw out about the relationship between himself and Bella were rather insulting. Esme could see how it would outrage Edward. Her face was wiped clean of the previous calm, soothing expressions into one of worry. She hoped neither of them would lose their temper.
Esme wasn't one that enjoyed confrontation. Though she was sure that no one actually did. She watched as Carlisle calmly spoke, explaining the familial love that all -well most- of the Cullens shared with Bella Swan. Esme stayed perched on the edge of the couch as Carlisle stood, appearing as a mediator of the current conversation.
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Post by Edward Cullen on Jan 3, 2009 23:40:44 GMT -5
Edward knew his parents wouldnt want him attacking this girl. Their will for that was really the only thing he had left to restrain him from taking out his anger in an aggressive form. This girl had touched on the most sensitive issue possible for Edward and it was all he could do to keep himself from completely lashing out at her.
"You're right, you dont understand it, but you have made judgements in believing that we're so careless" Edward told her, eyes glaring over at her.
Edward watched her trying to compose herself much as he had done. He wanted her to understand. "It was not our choice to bring her into this world, it was hers. Every choice from discovering what we were, to deciding to stay in it despite my specific instructions to her against doing so, they were all made by her alone. "She is no danger to exposing us, and we have enough control to trust ourselves around humans every day living among them. But still I fear for her every day for her willingness to enter our world, with the risks that encompasses. Do not think I overlook anything for a mere fascination" he said, saying the last word as if it had been an insult to him to describe his feelings for her that way.
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Post by Jayden Murphy on Jan 4, 2009 1:09:31 GMT -5
Carlisle’s change in position made Jayden look away from the window and back into the room. With Edward’s fists clenched and Carlisle imposing height Jayden couldn’t help but feel intimidated and shamed. She knew she’s over stepped her place and had pushed her own beliefs and ideas onto another. Jayden glanced at each of them in turn before speaking without looking away; instead she aimed her apology at each of them.
“I can see I’ve spoke out of place and I’m truly sorry. The subject is a personal one for us, I can see that. I will speak of it no more. In fact I would not blame you if you chose to rethink the previous offers of help.” Jayden paused, deeply hoping they wouldn’t because some part of her still wished to be near then and know them. She turned to Carlisle and Esme, “My father spoke so highly of you and I have shamed his name with my behavior. Esme, I have acted poorly in your home and there is no excuse.”
Finally Jayden looked to Edward and pulled herself up straight before speaking, “It is your life and choice. I speak only as the product of such a friendship, not as a judge. Fasination was the wrongly implied. For that I was wrong. However, no matter how much you insist that it is all her choice you must remember that our kinds very survival depends on luring and drawing humans in. remember that much of yourself, Edward.” She couldn’t bring herself to utter an apology though she felt it she settle for a offer of friendship, “Perhaps a little time in your company will change my opinion or help you see my side of the situation a little clearer.”
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Post by Carlisle Cullen on Jan 5, 2009 20:48:54 GMT -5
Carlisle’s eyes moved smoothly from Edward to Jayden as they continued their dicussion, carefully monitoring the tone and direction it was going in. He knew his son well enough to know what pushed his buttons to make him angry and in the last year or two it was Bella Swan. Of course Jayden couldn’t be expected to instantly understand the situation, it was certainly an unusual one, but a little more sensitivity wouldn’t go amiss. As she turned to address them all he neutralised his expression, a fresh start.
“The offers of help and welcome still stand,” Carlisle jumped in, his tone as warm as it was before the tension sprang up. He smiled at her a little, trying to dissolve some of the remaining bad atmosphere, and relaxed his stance. “We understand that you have some personal interested vested in this kind of situation, but you have to understand that Edward does too. All of us do. It’s not something we expect you to grasp totally and instantly, but if you are to be our guest in Forks then it is information you must be party to.”
He let it go there, though. He wasn’t in the business of trying to change people, though he would explain and defend his position on anything to the ends of the earth. Instead, he watched her explain herself to Edward and his confidence in their eventual understanding and acceptance of each other grew. There was very little that could be shown through conversation; there were words - love, soul mates - that could be thrown around, but until you saw the couple together, you couldn’t understand just how ’right’ they were for each other. Despite the odds.
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Post by Edward Cullen on Jan 12, 2009 0:58:28 GMT -5
Edward nodded as Carlisle let Jayden know that their offer to help her was still there. Edward would not go against Carlisle's wishes. He also did want to help her himself, and to make her understand his situation (hopefully better than Rosalie had). Edward would give her help. He would show her that he wasn't luring humans here to endanger them.
He heard Jayden start to apologize, seeming as though she realized she was wrong, and merely ignorant of their situation. But in the midst of it, she hit another nerve on Edward. Speaking of how his survival was based on him being able to lure her. He hated that part of him, and the anger he was feeling now was just as much because of his own character traits as it was because of what she was saying.
"I know what I am and how it affects her. I have done everything in my power to repel her from me. But the reasons she stays astonishingly enough have nothing to do with the beauties that are meant to lure my prety to me." He told her. "I have have not brainwashed her with my attributes." It bothered him that in her mind he knew she couldnt get herself to apologize. She didnt fully feel any regret for what she had said. "Perhaps getting to know me better will show you I'm not acting as foolishly as you believe. I have weighed the situation more than you'll know"
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Post by Jayden Murphy on Jan 14, 2009 11:36:08 GMT -5
Hearing that the offer of help still stood made Jayden sigh with relief that last thing she wanted to do was antagonize Carlisle and Esme. She had not come here to fight with anyone; it was just that her temper took over when Edward had mentioned the human. Jayden extended a smile to Carlisle and Esme; “Thank you.” She said politely.
Turning to Edward after she heard his justification and what she considered slight excuses for his involvement with the human. She half smiled to him and nodded. She would give him time and see this human for herself before she judged him again. Though in the back of her mind she doubted that anything she saw or anything that happened would change her mind.
“Ok Edward. I shall give you the benefit of the doubt, or my doubt.” She smiled again. “Perhaps in time I shall see my errors in judgment, but I would like to take that time. I will see things for myself before I making anymore rash critiques. Though, please know that my worries come from my own history and I would hate to see anyone make the same errors as my parents. The life I lead is not easy and it is far from balanced.”
How could it be? She thought to herself as she continued to look at Edward and his parents. How could she truly have a life in balance when she knew so little of the human world, and feared so much in the vampire one.
“Where do we go from here? I would like to stay.” She voiced a statement that her mind wasn’t sure it had thought through. “At least, I think I would like to stay.”
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Post by Carlisle Cullen on Jan 14, 2009 15:59:14 GMT -5
“Edward,” Carlisle said, softly, a slight warning to his voice as his son carried on the discussion when an appropriate end had been reached. He understood Edward’s need to make himself understood, but he also realised that there would be no persuading a stubborn mind in one argument. As soon as tempers became frayed there was little chance in persuading either party, even if they managed to calm themselves down enough to listen to each other. Still, points had been raised, and they would return to Jayden when she wasn’t caught in the middle of the situation.
He paused, allowing Jayden to say her piece in return and nodded a little. Happily, the hybrid quickly brought up her future plans and Carlisle retreated back to his seat with Esme. He gestured at the cream couches, “Please, sit down. You’ll be more comfortable and that is an issue up for discussion.”
He looked up at her with his amber eyes, warm tones to them, indicating that his words were an invitation, not an order. He was eager to make her more comfortable so she could make her mind up properly. He extended his arm out and put it back around Esme’s waist.
“Only you can know whether you want to stay or not, Jayden,” he said, his tone even. “We, as we’ve already said, would happily welcome you to Forks. The first thing we would need is an official identity for you to purchase a house under. Do you have any official documentation in existence? Don’t worry if you don’t, it’s the type of thing we’re well practiced in procuring.”
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Post by Jayden Murphy on Jan 16, 2009 16:46:26 GMT -5
Giving Carlisle and Esme a half smile Jayden return to her seat, she sat gracefully down and looked at the others in the room. She was ashamed, but thankful that this family was still being so hospitable. She listened as Carlisle, like her father would have, told her that only she could make the decision to stay or go. She smiled as he asked about documentation and helping her with that, should she need it.
“Thank you, but I have documentation, though it would be most helpful if you could check it and see that all is in order with the papers.” She asked with a smile. “My father left me well prepared for all eventualities, but it would be a good thing to have a more modern eye look over them.”
Dropping her gaze to her fingers she fiddled with her nails as she thought over the prospect of staying. What would she do? Where would she stay? He biggest worry was if she could stay in one place, she never had. In the past she had never wanted to stay in a place or had cause too, not since her father died. Moving had always been easier, less familiarity meant less pain.
“I should like to stay here in Forks, at least for time being. In truth I have never stayed in one place for very long at all.” Jayden said as she looked back up at the others in the room. “perhaps I can find a little place away from town so as to still have some sense of distance.”
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Post by Carlisle Cullen on Jan 26, 2009 14:45:59 GMT -5
Carlisle nodded as Jayden confirmed that she had the appropriate documentation to begin her new life close to the human side for the first time. Though, by the way that she spoke of her father’s involvement, he did wonder whether the documents were still in date or not. He would cross that bridge when he came to it, though, it was quite simple to tamper with already existing documents without being detected with the right know how.
“Of course,” he uttered, with a smile, chuckling a little at being referred to as a ‘modern eye’. His expert eyes scanned over her form, suddenly taking in her drooped posture. She would need a lot of encouragement to really throw herself into this new life, and though he could provide the fatherly, providing role, but he suspected that wouldn’t be enough.
“Yes, I’m sure we could find you somewhere adequate enough for you to be comfortable,” he told her, shifting through the possibilities in the area. “That is the beauty of a place like Forks - it is small and remote enough to reside in an area considered to be thoroughly outside the town, whilst not being very far at all. Do you have transport?”
Another question that could be construed as only logistics, but there was an ulterior motive behind Carlisle’s question. Sometimes it was necessary for them to leave an area quickly, which was one of the reasons they had fast, reliably expensive cars. Should Jayden suddenly find herself too enclosed, too close to human civilisation, he would really prefer she escaped by vehicle rather than her inhumanly swift pace.
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Post by Jayden Murphy on Jan 28, 2009 11:30:33 GMT -5
The idea of actually staying here was an alien one to Jayden; she was surprised it even registered in her mind as a viable one. Yet she knew she wanted to stay close to the Cullen’s and learn everything they could teach about been a Vampire as well as been human. Even from this short interaction with them she could tell that they seemed more human then any she had met before. She knew that the control of their thirst around humans was key to their fitting in and remaining undiscovered.
Jayden smiled a little as Carlisle spoke of finding her a place to live in Forks. She had noticed as she had moved through the town, on her way to this house, just how spread out the small town was. Jayden surprised herself again by actually been excited by the prospect of setting up some kind of base, though she wasn’t sure if it would be a home just yet.
Transport. Jayden heard the word and nodded. “Yes I have a car. Nothing ostentatious. Though it suits my needs.” She adored her little car she had found it at a car auction just outside of New York almost 10 years back. She knew it needed work to be compared to the cars of today, but it got her where she wanted to go.
“I parked on the outskirts of town. Just off the main road on a small dirt track.” She nodded, though now sitting her she wasn’t sure why she had felt the need to hid it. She knew approaching an unknown vampire on foot was easier, no need to worry about the engine not starting if she needed to get away. Yet now that seemed silly as she knew she was in no danger. “Just a precaution. You can understand I’m sure.”
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Post by Carlisle Cullen on Feb 2, 2009 17:01:02 GMT -5
Carlisle’s mouth twisted into its own ironic looking half smile as she mentioned her car and transformed into a grin of it own, dangerous white teeth flashing behind pink lips. The cars that the Cullens owned were considered to be quite something in the small town of Forks and he took the reputation for being a collector of fancy automobiles. That wasn’t strictly the truth, though.
“Ah,” he commented. “My son, over there is quite the avid collector of cars, though even his Volvo creates quite a stir in Forks High parking lot, so I hear. If you want to keep a low profile until you grow more confident, having something that blends in is the easiest way. My eldest daughter could probably fix it up, given the chance; she’s quite the grease monkey.”
He chuckled a little, clear pride showing through in his voice. What father didn’t like bragging about his children, given half the chance? He nodded a little as she explained where she had stowed it away and his smile resumed its calm confidence.
“I understand,” he said, simply. “You had no idea what to expect from us, or what had become of us since your father advised you to visit us. I’m sure any one of us would have been just as cautious.”
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Post by Jayden Murphy on Feb 3, 2009 15:58:31 GMT -5
The swell of pride in his voice as he spoke of his children made Jayden smile in remembrance of her own father. He used to get the same sound in his voice if he spoke of her or her mother. As Carlisle mention Edward’s car collection she couldn’t help but laugh; “My car would never be called a collectors item, but she gets me where I’m going, most of the time. Perhaps it may need a little mechanical attention.”
The thought of the rest of this family made Jayden realize she wasn’t actually sure how many Cullen’s lived here. It had been one reason she had been so cautious on her approach.
“How many are there in your family? If that isn’t a rude question?” She asked gently. It would be good to assess the current Vampire population of the area before been sure whether or not to stay.
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